On Hallucinations
I think what many people falsely assume about hallucinations, at least in the realm of a mental health problem and not a drug trip, is that you yourself think that you're hallucinating, because whilst hallucinating, you (I speak as "you", but I actually mean "me/I") don't feel like you're "out of touch with reality" or "insane", the hallucination just integrates into your lived experience, and the moment you realize a discrepancy between your own lived experience, and the one of everyone else, you start feeling like they are all wrong and you are the only person who is right about this, as such the hallucinations always feels real. It's the same way nobody "insane" actually feels like an insane person with insane thoughts, they just assume what they believe is right, and likewise you don't feel like there is something off or wrong about your lived experience when you're hallucinating.
Further notes
It's weird how once you get fucked with your perception of reality, you can never go back. At least for me, I constantly feel like I'm getting fucked with in regards to my perception of reality, even when I'm not psychotic. Nothing feels real anymore, whatever "real" might mean. Mind-rape. I look through my eyes, and I everything I see feels washed up, replaced (with what?), surreal, and distant. What the fuck am I even experiencing at this point? It used to make me anxious, now I'm just confused. Confusion is really the core of the human experience.
It feels like every moment you could flick your fingers and this world would turn out to be a dream. None of this feels real.