On Reality
I fucking hate reality. It's awful and I don't want to live in it. Just escape reality whenever possible and never bother with anything "real", live your life in fantasy worlds with no connection to the real world. As a Shut-in/NEET it's even easier, and there is no reason to not indulge in my imagination and fantasy.
When I was younger I had a very vivid imagination and would have elaborate fantasy worlds in my head, in which I would spend more time than in reality, and I think that's the only right approach. Something is not inherently more valuable just because it is "real". There is no such thing as a "real life", my imagined experience is just as valuable as your really lived experienced. Value is subjective, and I say "Fuck reality" in regards to that.
The more immersive it is the better - make me forget that I am me and focus on fiction.
Even the problems and unfortunate circumstances are better in fiction than they are in the "real life". Let me make memories from things that never happened, let my thoughts be related to fiction, and never think about reality.
Real people suck so much. Disregard the people, who want their waifu to be real, because that is completely missing the central point of having a waifu, namely that she is not real, and behaves and looks like a fictional character. If Kotori were real, she would also suck, by the mere nature of real things, and real people in particular. Waifuism is escapism, which is good that way.
Why are the people, who appreciate reality and suppose it being somehow valuable on the Internet? Why not live in your reality, if it's really that good? Just fuck off to where you're came from.
Reality makes me miserable, as such fiction shouldn't be a reflection of reality with all that it entails, but something in its own right.
1. Further notes on this issue (2026-05-04)
Nothing in this world feels natural for some reason. No matter what I do, I end up doing it wrong, and when I do them right, it's against my intuition and feeling for how things ought to be. This makes me not want to partake in it anymore. Fuck it.
This applies hundredfold to anything social. Gladly I'm freed from that for the most part, and can further isolate myself in my room in hopes that I can do so 5ever. Everything outside my room is a malicious scam made to humiliate me, so I will just never leave, ever again.
"Ohhhh, how is this miserable whining and bitching about the world change anything", says nobody ever. Well, it doesn't, but I'm done with a
Moreover, it is remarkable how every solution offered to make life supposedly more bearable is there to make you miserable in the long run, at least those offered by governmental orgnisations and other people of that ilk. It took me a while to realize there is no value in ever interacting with those.
Googling various forms of social interaction to find out what it implies and how to act "appropriately"…